Free Fallin’

So it’s been way too long since I’ve updated, life got a little crazy, but I recently just made a huge change in my life, and I am hoping to be able to dedicate time here again.
I moved. I moved out of my parents’ house and in with my boyfriend. Out of state. It has been such a bittersweet experience. I am so happy to have taken this huge step in my life, but leaving my family has been the most difficult thing that I have ever done. My mom is my best friend and we did everything together, and it is so hard leaving her knowing that we can’t just go grab lunch or dinner on a whim.
I know that this is the perfect time in my life to do this; venture out on my own and have the experience of a lifetime, but I wish it was right next door to my parents!
The reality of the situation still hasn’t completely sunken in yet. I haven’t yet found a job, and many of my bags remain unpacked. I haven’t been here for a full 24 hours yet, and even though his house is littered with my random things, it still just feels like a weekend visit, but if I were to go home, my room would be empty except for my bed. In this moment I am just free falling. While I was crying yesterday my boyfriend made a point that free falling isn’t the worst thing in the world; at no other point in my life can I have no worry of responsibility.

My boyfriend’s family is spread out over a few states, his parents live in different states than their siblings and parents; so when he left home it was almost like keeping up with the pace. My family on the other hand, has stayed in Connecticut and very few have ventured out. I keep thinking about all of the small things I am going miss and that is one of the more difficult things to come to terms with. But I will be spreading my wings and gaining my own experience. I am excited about what my new path has in store for me, and I hope that you will be there to follow. And any advice about moving away would be helpful!

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth,
…..
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-R.Frost

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